Personality Reading for Desmond

I decided to do this in a staircase type of reading, since in life we're trying to move forward, progess. I have included the URL at Amazon on the meaning of the card as provided by the text author Jessica Macbeth, and the page number the card appears on with the Amazon Online Reader--so if you want to read the Fearie Oracle meaning, you can search for the card name and then click on the page number I indicate. You might find that Amazon gives you an error message in reading more than 2 pages, they have a page cap. But it resets in a relatively short amount of time. So if you get a message saying you can't look at any more pages, just give it a few minutes...

I am publishing this information for three reasons: 1) I can actually format the information the way I want, unlike I can in an e-mail. 2) I want to demonstrate that tarot reading is not evil--like Ouija boards, cards cannot in and of themselves, be evil. Someone could argue that the simple act of reading tarot cards is a sin against God, but I disagree. How could discovering information that could make us better human beings be evil? Evil is in the heart of the explorer, it's not in inanimate objects and certainly not in spiritual growth. 3) I also want to demonstrate that tarot reading is not entirely psychic. I merely arced the cards, and ran my hand above them until I felt a tingle or a pull or some kind of warmth sensation. In one case, there was a loud popping noise, and it felt out of the deck in my hand. That is perhaps the only psychic aspect--pulling the cards themselves, or at least pulling the cards that will hopefully be helpful. I then mused on the cards a while, attempting to jigsaw the information from the accompanying text and the artwork into the puzzle of my knowledge about Desmond.

However, this will be written directly to Desmond from here on in...



First Card: The Bright Mother (page 68); Creativity, Nurturing, Productivity, Intimacy, Sheltering.
My Interpretation: While I shuffled the deck, I spoke your name and birthdate outloud, and as soon as I did there was a loud pop--so loud it startled me and Zhoul. It was this card that popped out, face down. I didn't know what the card was at the moment (didn't turn it over), but I decided to use it since apparently it was important enough to jump out of the deck. I suppose the first thing that struck me about the card, once I turned it over, was the female nudity, and I giggled to myself because it just seemed to figure for you. While reading the symbolic meaning given by Macbeth, the strongest reaction I had for you was this thought: "Consider what you have. Acknowledge the people and things in your life--good, bad, and indifferent. This consideration is not to judge, approve, or reject, but merely to recognize what is present in your life... Once you have looked clearly at what is present in your life, you may want to ask yourself what you want to change."

Taking this into consideration, and then studying the art, it is my interpretation that The Bright Mother is gazing into a crystal ball (or perhaps a soap bubble), or maybe not gazing, but studying. She is so focused on this observation that she is completely oblivious to the utter chaos that surrounds her: the rampant nudity, the bizarre goblins and mischievious sprites, even the pixies standing on her head--perhaps it is this focus that you need to remember and practice. The Bright Mother's confidence also struck me--she is nude herself, and yet displays no traditional humility in the Biblical sense (she doesn't feel the need to cover herself up, or censor herself). Perhaps more self-confidence will aid you in your examination, so you're not consistently second-guessing yourself and selling yourself short, or allowing others to do this; also the self-confidence will aid you in focusing on your goals. Because when you're confident with your decisions, then it doesn't matter how silly they might be to anyone else.

Second Card: Solus (page 60)); Knowledge, Consciousness, Synthesis, Spiritual empowerment.
My Interpretation: This card came up reversed, and the reversed meaning as given on page 61 gave me goosebumps: "When the light and spiritual empowerment of Solus is veiled, we need to remember that this Singer is there to help with seemingly lost causes and forlorn hopes. When you don't even know what to ask for, ask for his help and guidance. And then do the best you can for yourself." This is very much a Christian line of thinking--it's like that joke about the guy who was mad at God about never winning the lottery and then God says, "You never bought a ticket." I think this card, coupled with the Bright Mother is interesting, because these seem to pair together in an interesting parental dynamic, if I take this appearance of Solus as praternal that is... and well, that is the tingling sensation I'm getting.

Examining the art of this card, I notice that Solus is rising out of darkness, from a single pinnacle of light. Hope, I think. The light might not be as strong in the dark, but that small hope is enough to combat the darkness, which I think is the condition for human happiness. I was suddenly reminded of Samuel Johnson and his position that we are conditioned to live in the future because it gives us hope: "When I graduate college, I'll be happy." "When I get a real job, I'll be happy." "I'll be happy when I get a girlfriend." "When I get married." "When I buy a house." But once we achieve these goals, and we arrive in "happiness" we usually find that we aren't actually happy and we need to set another goal. It's funny because I remember writing about Samuel Johnson on my blog, so I did a search and found this entry--it's even directed to you, Des, from two years ago. Perhaps the message here is: you need to find a way to be happy in your present, as opposed to wistfully thinking the fluctuating future will being you happiness--because that's a lot of pressure to put on something that hasn't even happened yet.

Third Card: Honesty (page 118); Honesty, Compassion, Tect, Self-Deceit.
My Interpretation: After reading the meaning in the book, I found it interesting that Honesty is in plant form, and also goes by either other names. This kind of reminds me of the many identities you are predisposed to having: Alex Knight, for one; whatever character you D&D with; the LARPing. Plus, the fact that you're a Gemini, not that I ever put much credence into astrology (ironic, no?), but that seems like yet another predisposition to alternate egos. I think this might be important to keep in mind, especially when pursuing a relationship, in particular with a possible girlfriend. It may be appealing to be someone else for a while, someone the potential woman will like and find more interesting than simply you. It might be appealing to be someone's knight in shining armor, but that kind of strength, though noble, doesn't last very long. It's best in small doses.

As I look at the art of this card, the eyes strike me in particular. They remind me a basset hound's eyes. They're welcoming, gentle, understanding--unconditional. Honesty will accept you for who you are, as long as you can accept yourself. What is making you melancholy, Des? Honesty is reflecting what he sees.

Final Card: Tobaira of the Waters (page 111); Emotions, Serenity, Meditation, Gracefully accepting change.
My Interpretation: Again, there's nudity in this card, so I find it kind of ironic that the reading both begins and ends with nakedness. I don't think physical nakedness is the true meaning to be taken from this, but true soul-nakedness: an honest and thorough investigation of yourself and your life, and what you want out of it, and how you might become the best possible person you can be.

I think water is a curious substance. It has the power to create ponds and swamps, stagnant waters, while it also has the power to erode layers and reveal beauty underneath. Water sustains our bodies, but can also be deadly. Water is a simple thing we take for granted in this country.

One of the themes that the Bright Mother and Tobaira have in common is creativity, and if you look at the picture, it almost looks like Tobaira is weaving a tapestry with water. Perhaps that is her gift. Practicing her gift looks like it gives her serenity. Maybe taking more time for yourself and your creative endeavors (making campaigns, modeling, painting) will be beneficial, because I don't know how much time you actually give yourself to be creative in any given day or week. Perhaps incorporating creativity into a routine will renew you. I know how easy it is to just go to work, grab some dinner, and then sit in fornt of a computer instead of modeling or painting (the way it is for me easier to play video games than to write, heh). It's hard to actually get beyond that stagnation sometimes. But establishing a new routine, and allowing the creativity to flow, can be refreshing. We just need to find the motivation.

I hope this was helpful.

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