I like my t-shirts. I wish I had enough money to buy my own creations.


In other news...


I have my very own Red Swingline Stapler. I'll post a picture tonight.


Since last Thursday I was fired, and then 24 hours later, almost to the exact minute, I was re-hired... I have decided that I have officially lost my enthusiasim for my job. Although, I do admit that having the new intern, Brooke, has brought some healthy revitalization and added some zest back into my daily grind from 8 to 6 every day... I know for sure that this is not what I want to do for the rest of my life. I went and saw Lydia (the lady on maternity leave) on Sunday, which made me miss her even more than I do already, but she asked me what my plans were for next year (since I've been planning on going to grad school--although I have no idea where yet).


At this point, I don't honestly know what my plans are. I'm not sure if I fit in well into the film industry. They want you to sacrifice your life for the sake of the company, the project, and money. I enjoy having time to myself and for my family and for writing--the latter of which I haven't really done since we moved to California since I was either looking for jobs 12 hours a day or gone 12-14 hours a day working). I know for sure that I do not want to stay in an administrative position, which is essentially what I'm doing now being the Office Manager/Receptionist. I feel like I'm suffocating creatively because not much of what I do is creative, and then most of the time I lack the energy to be creative in other facets of my life when I finally get home at the end of the day. So I am looking forward to grad school as a creative outlet, as well as a way to learn and grow. Plus, I miss talking with others who share my same passion for writing, reading and learning, in general. I miss hanging out in my professor's office hours discussing William Blake and Ralph Waldo Emerson and politics and whatever else might have meandered through our tangential conversations. I miss having a core base of people who are writers and want to share their work with each other. So, for those reasons I am excited about going to grad school.


The reasons I'm not excited about grad school? Basically how do I support myself and Z if I'm going to school full-time and he doesn't have a job yet? I'm really nervous about that. Plus, let's say Z does have a job by next year, is it fair that I'm going back to school full-time and not working, since when he was in grad school he was working two jobs? I guess I could get a regular job, like at Barnes and Noble or something and work part-time, while going to school. That way I'm not a total leech again, like I was for the last 2 years while I was finishing my Bachelor's Degree. (Is it Bachelor's Degree or Bachelors Degree?)


Anyway... I have a lot to think about and consider. In the meantime, though, I started NaNoWriMo. I have 2,801 words so far.